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17:17 IST  hey buddy, what's going ?? nothing as such i suppose. i understand. so what should be done now ?? do i just vanish ?? as if anyone will notice :) nobody will so makes sense. but how do we start ?? why aren't things getting better ?? how much more does it take ?? even more ?? idk this is just too much isnt it . btw buddy just to let u know i am livestreaming rihgt now . nobody's watching.  koi na everything will get better. just vanish from everyone's life. koi bat nahi bhai chalta hai . hota hai .....  yayyyyyyyy  hehehehehee coming back again hopefully. maybe that works. will just turn off every possible setting.  17:22 IST right now . i will be back . hopefully !!!!!!!

  00:51 IST heyyy, wassup  well well last day was quite a idk . i didnt like the day . hopefully i am having a better day tomorrow. life has been going not the way i really wanted it to be .  do i like it ? ofc not  but regardless, it doesn't matter . anyways i am just going to do harkirat's class and idk what. i just wanna stay a little more. this was clearly a bad bad day  you know what ?? i am making it  and that's a promise to myself  11:23 IST  morning  today is going to be my best day, mark my words.  will be back exactly at 13:00 IST with an update on how the day is going.  bye for now. had a cup of coffee. uhh feels good   starting at 11:30 IST bye 20:11 IST  might be the last line of the day  but it either is going very up or down from here 21.06 IST Well well clearly not. didn't really expected to get stuck in the middle of this all of a sudden. Here by the doctor waiting for an appointment.  Here ...

15:57 IST  uhh been sometime,  was actually sick (just a little). ok i guess more than just a little. life might be taking a huge turn idk. do i like it ? not sure but yeah i am trying to adapt for sure. hopefully it gets better from here. from here on.  uhhh i feel like crying a little. i dont want to break down. keeping myself calm. cz that's the task maybe i am assigned right now.  i am afraid. a lot actually  anyways 16:00 IST i should take a shower. bye will be back. specially not that i cant open up a little more than i could've outside of this online page. will be back, better .  bid the gentleman good bye till then. uhh but i just wanted to be happy. why does it have to be so hard.  koi na . i am arka banerjee. and i live a life where my life is idolised. and i should be grateful. uhhh life be a litttle easy on me. with love , to arka banerjee  from arka banerjee (as if i thought i had someone else) did i ? i did  ok foolish me. ...

13:00 IST hey hey, a lot happened in the past few days. its been some 2 days. 29th Nov, 2024 today. starting the blog now. we have a lot for the day.  will update it all. // btw the new edition of 'the Arka Effect' is released. took me sometime to release. i think this is not a very optimal way to write a newsletter. it takes a whole lot of time and a bunch of work is still left undone.  working on it. will be back (13:03 IST) 13:16 IST did 100 pushups. man this feels so good. i enjoy this dopamine. i need it more .  well i have a few more things to do. i will sort the notes for the next youtube video i am planning. let's keep going. this is fun 

morning,  11:27 IST right now: looking forward to having a good day. hopefully a better one than yesterday. the whole of the ast day was very traumatic. wont lie. haha ., heading back to study a little. will be back. soon or maybe in an hour. got back a little. btw what will make me happy ?? there must be something that will make me happy isnt it ?? i know for a fact i will probably buy a domain in a couple of days. but will that make me happy ? nothing materialistic has the ability to make me happy.  as much as i think. how will i even get happy with materialistic things ?? life has been such a mess. but i see it getting better.  i know it is.  btw listening to an album after a long long time..from the Ludo film. idk about the film but the songs were good. koi na too much information (that too unnecessary ones). too many things hurting. things are getting better.  nothing happened buddy. 15:13 IST  well this was supposed oto happen. spotify banned all of t...

morning. btw just noticed. just a month from christmas now. its kindda different  afternoon,  ok dont worry about that part in the start it was just me trying to start the blog early up in the morning but somehow that it would be a distraction to write a blog early up in the morning. so it's now14:17 IST and i am now sitting down just prior to my lunch to write a little down. so i have been reading Kafka. well well just the basic basics of it , if that made any sense. i like the idea that it potrays. but it's highly bad for me. considering i have something called the overthinking problem. well i guess writing about all these is only gonna make me more and more think about his ideas. he somehow says in a story of him and a young girl (a story i knew way prior but didn't knew it was Kafka) that if you love something its bound to go someday or the other. well, i think i should just head back to lunch. additionally i have turned into a very rude person i guess. actually no. i a...